25th of July 2010 :)

I hit off my alarm at 6.45am and continued snoozing when suddenly i sprang up, feeling all excited because Mun Yoong's coming to see me! Then the next thing i did was reaching for my phone and true enough, i got a text from baby saying that he just had his breakfast and he was on the way. I was like..."OMG OMG OMG!" So i got ready, feeling superbly happy, and went off to church with my family. Then at 8.57am, he texted me saying "Bie, i'm just nearby your church 'yum cha' kay?" So he took approximately 2hours to reach Ipoh (he's from KL). So after taking the emblems, i went opposite at Salim to meet him. I WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE HIM! ='D

I brought him back to church, there was food and fun fair. I showed him around abit and he was really keen to know stuff about Christianity, which is good. HEHE. At around 10.30am, Gan and i took him to 'Tai Shu Geok' (Big Tree Trunk. I know, LOL right.) The place is famous for their 'zhao liew' (some fried food with fish fillings.) After eating, we went back to church cuz daddy and mommy wanted to say hi (yeah, right.). I'm really glad daddy was very friendly. Not that he's not a friendly person but when it comes to cases like this, where a guy takes me out for a date, he'll put a stern face. Haha.

Mun Yoong and i went to jusco then. We walked around and bought movie tickets, Eclipse, at 5.30pm. His friends suddenly decided to come down to Ipoh from Cameron's. LOL. While waiting for his friends in the car, he said "Baby, be with me." I looked at him and laughed "Aren't i with you?" Then he repeated, "No baby, BE WITH ME. Be my girlfriend." I was speechless and i couldn't hid my smile. Then i teased, "So this is how you're gonna ask me? In the car? Like this? So not romantic." And he went "That was why i asked you earlier if there's some place nice here like a park or something. So that i could ask you properly." I looked at him, laughed and said "Okay LAH." for certain reason. Not gonna explain in details ;)

So then we had tea time with his friends and then we went for the movie with Gan and Ken. I can see that baby's really tired cuz he actually fell asleep for a bit in the movies. Sorry baby! ): After movie, went to Wooley Food Court for dinner and then to somewhere near my church to buy 'Hiong Peng' for his mom. After sending me home, baby left ='(

I couldn't describe how happy i was yesterday. It was an awesome day with him. Thank you baby for coming all the way here for me. Thank you for appreciating me and thank you so much for loving me. I'm glad you love the sandwiches and the shirt. I love you baby ♥

"Everytime when we are together, i couldn't help but wish time would stop."

Tell me straight in the face!

I don't get why people wanna hate you and do despicable actions behind you, anonymously. I feel it's an act of a coward, chicken, sissy, whatever you call it. If you dislike me, come tell me then! Nobody's perfect anyways. And i'm sure if i get to hear you out and think yeahh maybe it is my bad, then it's all good. I'll probably even change. Confrontation works way better than doing shite behind people's back, not letting anyone know who you are. Don't you think it feels awful hating someone? It makes one person full of nothing but hatred. Confront and not everyone'll just hit you back. Some might just take your advice and change. I know i would. I dare say i would. Of course that's if the reason you hate me is reasonable. So stop whatever you're doing, whoever you are. BE A FRICKEN MAN! (or woman, whichever.)

"Don't waste your time bringing me down. It ain't gonna work."

Baby, Happy 21st ♥

Baby just turned 21! The legal age for almost everything. HEHE *wink* It's a waste i can't be there for you today baby. I'm so sorry ): But i'll make it up to you this Sunday okay? *Pinky promise :)

Anyhoo, hope he'll have an awesome one with his friends and family today :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY! I heart you ♥

"I wanna spend every birthday with you."

Life, where art thou?

As usual, baby's at work. As usual, i'm online. As usual, i'm bored. WHEN EXACTLY AM I GONNA BE WELL?? I hate feeling like this all the time. Like i need to take uber deep breaths. I feel it's so hard to breathe it's crazy. And the worse part is i can't do anything about it at all. I'm still on medication. I do feel better but how long do i need to still rely on drugs to breathe well? This is shit. I hate the fact that i'm born with a weak body. Despite the big body size, i'm a tofu =.=

Gan is sick. I wanna go visit her tonight. Without her, i'll be bored to death. And now that she's sick, it's driving nuts. I wish she'd be well soon. Gan, will pray for you. Speedy recovery! *Mwahh* :D

Shit it's only Monday today. When is Sunday coming?? I wanna see him so bad it hurts ):

"Loving you makes me happy 24/7."

Look in the mirror.

Someone i've known for years told me i've changed. Someone i treated like my own lil brother. I was and still am disappointed in him. From what i've heard, everyone else has been saying HE'S the one who's changed as he's grown. But the stubborn him just doesn't admit it.

Yes, nobody's perfect. Everyone has flaws. So why make judgments and assumptions at people around us? Well i guess that makes us human, hypocrites huh? =/

Half an hour ago i was having some bonding moment with daddy and mommy. I kinda told them about Mr He-who-shall-not-be-named-yet. No doubt they're the coolest parents ever. They were being so cute about it, joking that they're gonna question him when he comes to my place to take me out and stuff. But then mommy saw one of his picture in facebook. He was holding a ciggie. Yes of course, parents will be parents. When they know a guy you like and gonna date, smokes, obviously they're gonna go ballistic. I tried explaining to them that i'll convince baby to quit smoking and that cuz he's a free thinker, he's willing to follow me to church. Daddy and mommy were cool about it. Maybe because they know how stubborn their daughter is. HEHE :P

I'm not letting him go. I miss him so much already ): Baby i can't wait. See you sunday, bie. <3

And no matter what, still, i think i've got the best parents ever. I heart them more than anything :)

"Daddy Mommy, thanks for everything that i am today. I love you."

New Blog. Again.

Every now and then, I often wish i could turn back time and change things that i regret doing. I do shit. I regret. I avoid. I make a fresh start. And then it starts all over again. It's like a cycle. I don't know about others but sometimes, most of the time in fact, i feel like shit happens more than the good things do. They just keep coming don't they? Or is it just me?

The past few months have been crazy. I took up a FA (flight attendant) course in KL. I've done 2months of the course. Outta 3 that is. And heck! I'd never expect things to go topsy-turvy. I was totally taken aback. Aren't there anything i can actually do well in? I mean. Even if this course i took, what happened in there, it wasn't even my fault. But really, isn't there anything GOOD that i can actually experience? It's making it harder to walk this life. And what was my objective taking up the course again? Yeap. To make life easier. Hell i wish it really does. But no. Gave me hell.

And then i'm back in Ipoh. I fainted a couple of times. I actually thought i was gonna die or something cuz i have not fainted in my entire life and after the few times i did, it was scary. I don't know if it's the same for everyone else but for me, it was as if i was gonna stop breathing. I was gasping for air. Sitting there in the dining room at home, having lunch with daddy, after a spoon or two, my breathing got worse. If it was like before, the whole month where my breathing started getting abit difficult (even just sitting down doing nothing), i'd just suck it up and not tell daddy. But that day was different. I couldn't breathe at all. So i look at daddy and said "Daddy, i can't breathe." Daddy freaked out as he look up at my pale paper-white face. He helped me to the couch and after laying down, i was abit alright.

Anyways, doctor said it might be caused by anxiety. Too stressful. Too much pressure. Or trauma. I went for a blood test and it shows that i'm fine. Just that my blood pressure is abit low. And i need jabs for Hep B cuz my antibody's zero. Now i know why i always fall sick =.=

This 2 weeks since i came back, cuz of the fainting thingy, i barely speak to anyone, answer calls or reply texts. I have no idea why. But all of a sudden, from someone who hates being alone, i actually wanted to spend time with no one but me. I enjoyed my time alone in my room. I feel peaceful. So peaceful that i don't wanna go anywhere anymore. And i realize that life is SO MUCH EASIER when i'm home with daddy and mommy T_T

Apart from that, despite the calls and texts that i never replied, there's this one guy that i've talked to for the whole week every single day. It's ironic how sudden he just came into the picture when all i ever wanna be is just alone. But i thank God he did. Because i've fallen for him. I wonder why i never bother about his existence before this. I wonder why i never notice him at all before this. And when i thought it was too late, he did something for my sake. Just to be with me. I'm glad he came into my life. Thank you, baby! I can't wait to spend time with you! :)

Right now, all i wanna do is just quit thinking. I'm tired. I'm beat. I need a rest. From everything and everyone. Guess that's why i'm back at my crib. 'There is no place like home.' Very true :)

"Time flies. Things happen. Life goes on."